It's a first. He is napping, and power napping at that. He has been asleep for over 3 hours, I was going to wake him at the 2 hour mark, but then I remembered. . ."NEVER wake a sleeping baby." However, I will wake him after 4 hours, I want him to eat and be able to sleep tonight.
I should probably be sleeping as well. But instead I cleaned, folded laundry, and checked e-mail. I am tired, but are very loud dishwasher is running and I am scared I won't hear him if he wakes. (which is impossible, if you know my son, but still)
We had another doctors appt. the other day, he is now at 9 lbs, 10 oz. Such a big boy! Sleeping at night is getting better, and some days it seems like we are in a better routine, others not so much. It gets hard on the days that my husband works 2 jobs and leaves before he is up and doesn't come home until the whole family is sleeping. Those are long days. I usually try to take Jax somewhere and go visit to break it up. It really makes me respect single mothers on those days that don't have any help, because I feel like a single mother on those days. The days that you don't get out and it's just you and the baby are very long days. Even more so when the baby doesn't sleep. There is only so much you can do with a one month old who isn't sleeping. It's not like he can play, although I try. We go from playmat to pack n play to swing to bouncer. I sing and rock him, read books to him that he has no interest in, walk him around the house and porch, and then start all over again.
It's amazing what having a child can do to your emotions as well. I've never been much of a cryer. I've had my breakdowns, but I usually hardly ever cried. Now, I can just look at my son and cry. I think of the future or the past, and cry. And not for any reason other then I love him so much.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Can't Sleep
It sucks when your baby is sleeping good and you can't sleep. My mind is just racing tonight, and then I make it worse by reminding myself if I don't get to sleep soon, how rough of a day I am going to have. Oh, well, nothing I can do about it now.
Not sure how much longer I am going to keep blogging, I'm obviously having a tough time keeping up as is. And I'm not sure what to write about or what importance it has anymore.
Jaxson is doing well, and it seems like everyone is finally adjusting. I have to say while breastfeeding is sometimes hard and makes me feel like I am tied down, I really enjoy that time I have with my son. And I think I am going to be disappointed when I stop.
I often think about when I take him to daycare, and the thought just kills me. He is going to go from being with mommy 24 hours of a day to being with a stranger for over 8 hours a day. It just doesn't seem right or fair.
Jaxson still doesn't like to nap during the day, and you have to almost force him to lay down and nap. I've never heard of a newborn doing this. It's amazing how he fights sleep, like he might miss something important.
Like I have said in previous posts, I can't believe how much I love him. He is my whole heart.
Not sure how much longer I am going to keep blogging, I'm obviously having a tough time keeping up as is. And I'm not sure what to write about or what importance it has anymore.
Jaxson is doing well, and it seems like everyone is finally adjusting. I have to say while breastfeeding is sometimes hard and makes me feel like I am tied down, I really enjoy that time I have with my son. And I think I am going to be disappointed when I stop.
I often think about when I take him to daycare, and the thought just kills me. He is going to go from being with mommy 24 hours of a day to being with a stranger for over 8 hours a day. It just doesn't seem right or fair.
Jaxson still doesn't like to nap during the day, and you have to almost force him to lay down and nap. I've never heard of a newborn doing this. It's amazing how he fights sleep, like he might miss something important.
Like I have said in previous posts, I can't believe how much I love him. He is my whole heart.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Things I've Learned.
Being a parent is the most rewarding and frustrating experience. And it can go from frustrating to rewarding in a matter of seconds.
Everything in your life changes in a blink of an eye. The things that were once important, don't mean anything, and you can't remember why you ever thought they were important in the first place.
That there is a new boss in the house. You are not boss, there is a little 2 foot person that rules everything in the household!
That I sometimes have no clue what he wants, and I don't always know what to do. But I know that I couldn't love him anymore that what I do.
That I will never write another blog in one sitting or even in one day! I don't have the time or energy.
That I want to continue to simplify my life, and I want to continue to get the unwanted drama out of my life. I want my son's life to be filled with love and calmness. Life is hard enough as is, he doesn't need any extra drama added into his life.
That I already miss him when I think about him going to daycare and it makes me cry.
That not all babies nap all the time or at all. I have one of the few babies that do not nap.
That the things I thought where must haves, I don't even use.
You can never have too many swaddle blankets or hands.
That breastfeeding takes up most of my time. But I really do enjoy our quiet time together.
I never thought I could love something or someone as much as I love him.
Everything in your life changes in a blink of an eye. The things that were once important, don't mean anything, and you can't remember why you ever thought they were important in the first place.
That there is a new boss in the house. You are not boss, there is a little 2 foot person that rules everything in the household!
That I sometimes have no clue what he wants, and I don't always know what to do. But I know that I couldn't love him anymore that what I do.
That I will never write another blog in one sitting or even in one day! I don't have the time or energy.
That I want to continue to simplify my life, and I want to continue to get the unwanted drama out of my life. I want my son's life to be filled with love and calmness. Life is hard enough as is, he doesn't need any extra drama added into his life.
That I already miss him when I think about him going to daycare and it makes me cry.
That not all babies nap all the time or at all. I have one of the few babies that do not nap.
That the things I thought where must haves, I don't even use.
You can never have too many swaddle blankets or hands.
That breastfeeding takes up most of my time. But I really do enjoy our quiet time together.
I never thought I could love something or someone as much as I love him.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Birth Story ( a little late)
Let's hope I can remember all of this!
June 26th, I was convinced that I would go to the date I was scheduled to be induced. Husband and I went for a short walk that evening, and watched a movie. Got ready for bed around 11:00. Baby was very active with low punches, and I couldn't get comfortable in bed. I rolled from my back to by left side when all of a sudden, my water broke. And that is an understatement. I'm talking Niagara falls, gushing. (I thought that only happened in the movies) While I was in the bathroom waiting for my doctor to call me back and trying to control Niagara falls, Chris put the last minute items in the suitcase. I was extremely nervous and excited at the same time.
We got to the hospital at a little after midnight, checked in and was wheeled up to the maternity floor. From there everything goes into fast pace. We got to my suit, I went to the bathroom to change out of my clothes and into the hospital gown. No sooner then I get into the bed, my contractions started. The nurse checked me and said I was at 3 centimeters. I asked for an epidural and was told they like to wait a little longer.
An hour later, my contractions where camel backing and where right on top of each other. Some of them never completely went away and just rolled into another one. My contractions where longer then the rest period in between. The nurse came in to check me again, and I was at 5 centimeters, she gave me a shot to help me relax between the contractions. Which would have been great, if I would have time to actually relax! Soon after, I starting shaking. I mean whole body shaking like the chills, but non-stop. She said it was just my body's way of dealing with labor, and if I tried to fight it it would get worse. Everything after that just rolls into the next thing. The anesthesiologist came in and gave me my epidural, which worked for 2 hours, and then I started to feel the contractions again. At the same time as this is happening, the nurse comes in because my blood pressure was dropping and she had to give me a shot to bring it back up. A few minutes after that, she came in and had me switch positions because the baby's heart rate was dropping. All the while I am pushing my button on the epidural and it still isn't working. I finally push the button for the nurse at 4:15 am, I knew it was time to push because I could feel pressure, however I didn't want to because I could feel every contraction and just wanted more drugs! She comes in and checks me and I am fully dilated and ready to go, there isn't time for anymore drugs. The doctor comes in and the pushing begins. I am not making any progress, the baby is posterior. We continue to push for 40 minutes and now the baby's heart rate is starting to drop with every push. (Plus, the baby had passed meconium, so every minute he was in there, increased the health risk to him) The doctor comes in and says that it is time to take me in for a c section for the health of the baby. I have no objections at this time. They rush me over to the OR and Chris changes into his scrubs. They give me another epidural, and start to perform the scratch test to make sure it is working. All is good until the get to the right side or my stomach. I can feel it. They wayt a few minutes, and try again. I can still feel it. And this time, they decide it is best to put me completely under. I am slightly frightened, but I just wanted to get everything over with at this point. The whole night has been a weird experience, and I almost feel like I am present for everything, but not actually going through it, even though the pain has been very real. Chris is not allowed in the room once they put me under and has to wait in the hall. Jaxson Xavier was born at 5:19 am, (with his umbilical cord wrapped around his neck) while mommy was sleeping and daddy was in the hallway. Mommy finally got to meet her son at around 8:00 that morning.
Recovery has not been easy as well. The first day was extremely painful, I remember asking for more drugs as soon as I woke up. Before even asking for my son, I'm not sure at that point if I even remembered why I was there. The second day I was there, they made me get out of bed, which was horrible as well.
I am now approaching three weeks since the birth of my son, I am feeling really good. Still limited in movement, and I get tired easily. And my stomach can be very tender or if I move to quickly, can feel like it is ripping.
But in the end, I have a very healthy and beautiful son. Who was so worth every once of pain. I love him with all of my heart, in fact he is my heart.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
A note to my son
Dearest Son,
I know you are very happy just where you are, but you are truly missing out. If you were to come out, you would have so much more room! You could stretch out, and move around. Also, it's not cold out anymore. It is about the same temperature as it is in my belly, so you really won't be cold. And I promise, I'll make daddy stop turning down the air. You have a lot a cute clothes to wear, and if you stay in there you will be too big to wear them. Also, if you come out, you won't have to hear mommy say ouch a million times a day and night when you decide to kick my ribs or move when you are really low.
I know that you are really enjoying the ice cream that I feed you on a daily basis, but I'm afraid I am going to have to stop. It's spinach from now until you come out.
If you don't come out on your own, they are evicting you on the 1st. So I really think it's better if you just decide today that you would like to meet everyone. (Plus, you are wasting mommies maternity leave in there.)
Love,
Your mom
I know you are very happy just where you are, but you are truly missing out. If you were to come out, you would have so much more room! You could stretch out, and move around. Also, it's not cold out anymore. It is about the same temperature as it is in my belly, so you really won't be cold. And I promise, I'll make daddy stop turning down the air. You have a lot a cute clothes to wear, and if you stay in there you will be too big to wear them. Also, if you come out, you won't have to hear mommy say ouch a million times a day and night when you decide to kick my ribs or move when you are really low.
I know that you are really enjoying the ice cream that I feed you on a daily basis, but I'm afraid I am going to have to stop. It's spinach from now until you come out.
If you don't come out on your own, they are evicting you on the 1st. So I really think it's better if you just decide today that you would like to meet everyone. (Plus, you are wasting mommies maternity leave in there.)
Love,
Your mom
Sunday, June 20, 2010
39 weeks
This feels like an endless journey now. I really thought I would go this weekend. I even wake up in the night making up contractions, hoping that everything is a contraction. And nothing is. He has completely ran out of room in my belly and is taking up space anywhere he can find it. Which makes me the most uncomfortable. I feel like I am carrying a toddler in my belly. I dread bed time, because I can only sleep sitting up. And that is usually for 30 minutes at a time. To top all this off, my dog broke my toe yesterday. So I am hobbling around, which sucks. I want to take a long walk to get him moving. I have laundry to do.
At this doctors appt this weekend, I am asking for a means to an end. (if you think about it, I have every right. 3 weeks ago and he was pushing 7 pounds, he could be 25 pounds at this point!) If asking doesn't work, I am begging, threatening, at worst case, attaching myself to the bed and not leaving. He has to exit this week.
How far along are you? 39 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? Still 156 pounds. (which is up 28 pounds)
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Small movements, he has nowhere to go. He favors my left side, and loves my ribs.
Best moment this week? Really, I think when you are down this far, there is no favorite moment. If my water was to break, that would be a favorite moment! But since I have to pick one, I would say receiving Sophie! Someone bought me (or actually him) Sophie and I love her!
Food Cravings? Sweets and fruit. I don't want regular food, just fruit or ice cream.
Milestones? 39 weeks.
Labor Progress? 1 centimeter, some cramping. But nothing else. Oh, and spicy food, pineapple, raspberry ice tea, and bumpy roads do NOT make you go into labor.
Weekly Wisdom? Stolen from the last question, nothing is going to make you go into labor unless your body is ready. I am keeping my fingers crossed that maybe the doctor will hear my pleads this week and work some voodoo magic.
At this doctors appt this weekend, I am asking for a means to an end. (if you think about it, I have every right. 3 weeks ago and he was pushing 7 pounds, he could be 25 pounds at this point!) If asking doesn't work, I am begging, threatening, at worst case, attaching myself to the bed and not leaving. He has to exit this week.
How far along are you? 39 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? Still 156 pounds. (which is up 28 pounds)
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Small movements, he has nowhere to go. He favors my left side, and loves my ribs.
Best moment this week? Really, I think when you are down this far, there is no favorite moment. If my water was to break, that would be a favorite moment! But since I have to pick one, I would say receiving Sophie! Someone bought me (or actually him) Sophie and I love her!
Food Cravings? Sweets and fruit. I don't want regular food, just fruit or ice cream.
Milestones? 39 weeks.
Labor Progress? 1 centimeter, some cramping. But nothing else. Oh, and spicy food, pineapple, raspberry ice tea, and bumpy roads do NOT make you go into labor.
Weekly Wisdom? Stolen from the last question, nothing is going to make you go into labor unless your body is ready. I am keeping my fingers crossed that maybe the doctor will hear my pleads this week and work some voodoo magic.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Labor fear?
I get that question a lot. Are you scared. No, not really. I mean, if I sit down and obsess about the details, then yeah, I get a little freaked out. Who wouldn't? But in my head I am more then prepared.
Here is how I try to explain it. I choose to have elective surgery a few years ago, some thought I was nuts. But it was something that I always wanted to do. So the cost, the pain and the process didn't make me hesitate for a second.
This is also something I wanted to a long time. So the pain, the cost and the process isn't going to scare me. I'm actually very anxious. And trying to keep busy lately just isn't helping.
Today my husband works, so I have to try to keep busy on my own. Not easy when you have been up since 6:30. But I have a schedule in my head of things to do, and I think I will include a nap in there!
Here is how I try to explain it. I choose to have elective surgery a few years ago, some thought I was nuts. But it was something that I always wanted to do. So the cost, the pain and the process didn't make me hesitate for a second.
This is also something I wanted to a long time. So the pain, the cost and the process isn't going to scare me. I'm actually very anxious. And trying to keep busy lately just isn't helping.
Today my husband works, so I have to try to keep busy on my own. Not easy when you have been up since 6:30. But I have a schedule in my head of things to do, and I think I will include a nap in there!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
38 Weeks
I'm exhausted. Seriously. I just want this baby to come. Still not miserable, like everyone acts like I should be. I'm just over it, and I want to meet my son. He on the other hand, is very happy where he is and has no plans to meet us anytime soon!
How far along are you? 38 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? Still 156 pounds.
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Same as last week.
Best moment this week? Umm, just that we are ready. (do you hear that jr??? We are ready.)
Food Cravings? Still nothing.
Milestones? 38 weeks. Full term and still cooking.
Labor Progress? Last week I was 1/2 centimeter. What?! Only a half??? Looks like slow progress to me. Very slow, next doctors appt. is tomorrow.
Weekly Wisdom? Smile at peoples stupid comments, they think they are funny. But we all know that they are asses!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
37 weeks and Can't Sleep
So it's Sunday and I have been up since 5:30. Instead of just laying in bed, I figured that I would get up and get things done. Like Blog, since I haven't in awhile. What was keeping me up on a Sunday morning, work. Ugh. I'm so over it, and that place. Not sure if it is the pregnancy or if I need something different, but the thought of going there again makes me sick.
All in all the pregnancy is still going well. Baby is fine, so the sonogram went well. He is slightly larger then the average baby, where we gets that from, I have no clue. I guess I have been feeding him well!
I met with the head doctor at my practice the other day and asked him about exit plans, and he said he are just going to proceed like normal at this point. So I took it in my own hands to find out what can speed up labor! Found lots of suggestions online, the only 2 I am doing is walking and eating pineapple, hopefully those work. I'm thinking Tuesday would be a great day to go into labor!
It's not that I am completely uncomfortable and that is why I want the baby out, it's honestly because I don't want to work anymore. I really think I might snap if I go in there one more day! My husband said it's become a public safety concern. . .he really isn't joking. You try working with 60 engineers. . .
Oh, and the burny pain at the top of my stomach is back.
How far along are you? 37 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? 156 pounds, and I'm not ashamed of posting that.
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Around 9 at night he is really active. And he is strong! Sometimes I hold my belly when he is moving around almost in an attempt to keep him in there, it feels like he is trying to break out! Lots of lower jabs as well, those are very uncomfortable.
Best moment this week? Nursery is done! And I love it. We are also now completely ready for little man to arrive. Also, the sonogram turned out to look fine, so we are now expecting a healthy baby!
Food Cravings? Still nothing.
Belly button in or out? It's not totally out, but it's not really in, either. I don't know, my belly button is weird.
Milestones? Finishing the baby's room. I really didn't think it would be done in time.
Labor Progress? None that I know of. 2 weeks ago, they confirmed that his head had dropped and he is in position and that my cervix was getting soft but no dilation. Last week, they didn't check, said there was no need to check every week and disturb anything going on. Hopefully, they will check this week.
Weekly Wisdom? Baby steps and patience. No matter what you do, you have to except that the baby is coming on his own time.
All in all the pregnancy is still going well. Baby is fine, so the sonogram went well. He is slightly larger then the average baby, where we gets that from, I have no clue. I guess I have been feeding him well!
I met with the head doctor at my practice the other day and asked him about exit plans, and he said he are just going to proceed like normal at this point. So I took it in my own hands to find out what can speed up labor! Found lots of suggestions online, the only 2 I am doing is walking and eating pineapple, hopefully those work. I'm thinking Tuesday would be a great day to go into labor!
It's not that I am completely uncomfortable and that is why I want the baby out, it's honestly because I don't want to work anymore. I really think I might snap if I go in there one more day! My husband said it's become a public safety concern. . .he really isn't joking. You try working with 60 engineers. . .
Oh, and the burny pain at the top of my stomach is back.
How far along are you? 37 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? 156 pounds, and I'm not ashamed of posting that.
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Around 9 at night he is really active. And he is strong! Sometimes I hold my belly when he is moving around almost in an attempt to keep him in there, it feels like he is trying to break out! Lots of lower jabs as well, those are very uncomfortable.
Best moment this week? Nursery is done! And I love it. We are also now completely ready for little man to arrive. Also, the sonogram turned out to look fine, so we are now expecting a healthy baby!
Food Cravings? Still nothing.
Belly button in or out? It's not totally out, but it's not really in, either. I don't know, my belly button is weird.
Milestones? Finishing the baby's room. I really didn't think it would be done in time.
Labor Progress? None that I know of. 2 weeks ago, they confirmed that his head had dropped and he is in position and that my cervix was getting soft but no dilation. Last week, they didn't check, said there was no need to check every week and disturb anything going on. Hopefully, they will check this week.
Weekly Wisdom? Baby steps and patience. No matter what you do, you have to except that the baby is coming on his own time.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
35 Weeks
Pregnancy: 35 weeks
Weight Gain: total of 26 pounds, I don't think that is bad!
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty good, with the usual breaks for the bathroom. I usually wake up because I have a stomach cramp, or it feels like he has jammed a foot in my rib. After repositioning, I usually feel better and can get back to sleep.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Okay. Exhausted. We went shopping the other day and I had to cut our trip short, I never cut a shopping trip short! And today, I thought I was going to fall over in the very first store!
Health: Mine, good. The baby's. . .he seems healthy. But we will find out soon enough.
Movement: The same kicks and punches, sometimes a little hard or in weird places.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks, belly button kind of out, kind of in.
Next Appointment: May 25th, internals start this week. And I will have my strep B test.
Weight Gain: total of 26 pounds, I don't think that is bad!
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty good, with the usual breaks for the bathroom. I usually wake up because I have a stomach cramp, or it feels like he has jammed a foot in my rib. After repositioning, I usually feel better and can get back to sleep.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Okay. Exhausted. We went shopping the other day and I had to cut our trip short, I never cut a shopping trip short! And today, I thought I was going to fall over in the very first store!
Health: Mine, good. The baby's. . .he seems healthy. But we will find out soon enough.
Movement: The same kicks and punches, sometimes a little hard or in weird places.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks, belly button kind of out, kind of in.
Next Appointment: May 25th, internals start this week. And I will have my strep B test.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Another test.
I've been told that God doesn't throw anything at you that you can't handle. . .I think God has seriously overestimated me.
34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. There might be something wrong with my baby. What do you do with that at 34 weeks?
I am a miscarriage survivor. I have gotten pregnant against the odds of PCOS. My husband and I have hit rock bottom (or close to) financially this year, and are still getting by. I was already in Labor and Delivery due to no fetal movement when I was 6 months pregnant. I failed the first round of glucose testing.
But this, this is a whole different level.
I have to wait two weeks and then I am seeing a Perinatologist for another growth ultrasound. The baby's head and stomach are larger then the rest of his body. Best case scenario, nothing is wrong. Worst Case, the baby has Down's. And then there is the whole slew of things in the middle that I can't even wrap my head around. I am completely focused on both of those. It is either nothing or the worst case, there is no middle ground for me right now.
My husband and I opted out of the testing at the beginning of the pregnancy for a couple of reasons. One, it's not 100%. After all I had been through, I didn't want a false positive to be a shadow over this pregnancy.
Two, what do you do if you have a positive result? Do you end the pregnancy, because it's not a prefect little baby? Is that selfish? Would I do something like that? I don't have the answers to any of those questions, and I would never judge anyone for making those decisions. Because that is a very personal and heart wrenching decision to have to make. I didn't want to make those decisions, so I didn't get tested.
But I have to admit, on several occasions I have questioned our decision not to. Always worried in the back of my mind that something could be wrong. And now that possibility is laid before us, and there is nothing I can do. No amount of praying or crying will change whatever the outcome is going to be. And no matter what that outcome is, he is coming into this world, either healthy or not.
So I am going to continue on getting his nursery ready, picking up last minute items that he may need, washing his clothes.
Are me and my husband prepared to raise and love a special needs child? Absolutely not. Are we capable of doing so (mentally and financially)? I really have no clue, but we may have to find out.
34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. There might be something wrong with my baby. What do you do with that at 34 weeks?
I am a miscarriage survivor. I have gotten pregnant against the odds of PCOS. My husband and I have hit rock bottom (or close to) financially this year, and are still getting by. I was already in Labor and Delivery due to no fetal movement when I was 6 months pregnant. I failed the first round of glucose testing.
But this, this is a whole different level.
I have to wait two weeks and then I am seeing a Perinatologist for another growth ultrasound. The baby's head and stomach are larger then the rest of his body. Best case scenario, nothing is wrong. Worst Case, the baby has Down's. And then there is the whole slew of things in the middle that I can't even wrap my head around. I am completely focused on both of those. It is either nothing or the worst case, there is no middle ground for me right now.
My husband and I opted out of the testing at the beginning of the pregnancy for a couple of reasons. One, it's not 100%. After all I had been through, I didn't want a false positive to be a shadow over this pregnancy.
Two, what do you do if you have a positive result? Do you end the pregnancy, because it's not a prefect little baby? Is that selfish? Would I do something like that? I don't have the answers to any of those questions, and I would never judge anyone for making those decisions. Because that is a very personal and heart wrenching decision to have to make. I didn't want to make those decisions, so I didn't get tested.
But I have to admit, on several occasions I have questioned our decision not to. Always worried in the back of my mind that something could be wrong. And now that possibility is laid before us, and there is nothing I can do. No amount of praying or crying will change whatever the outcome is going to be. And no matter what that outcome is, he is coming into this world, either healthy or not.
So I am going to continue on getting his nursery ready, picking up last minute items that he may need, washing his clothes.
Are me and my husband prepared to raise and love a special needs child? Absolutely not. Are we capable of doing so (mentally and financially)? I really have no clue, but we may have to find out.
Monday, May 10, 2010
33 Weeks
Pregnancy: 33 weeks
Sleep: Depends on how I am feeling, but most nights I sleep pretty good.
Gender: Boy
Health: Okay. I had some contractions over the weekend, along with back pain, and stomach pain. But I feel much better today. I called my doctor's office today about the burning pain at the top of my stomach. I think it is muscle pain, but wanted to be sure. The nurse called back and said I could have gull stones and to go to the ER or call if it gets worse. I don't think she is right, HOWEVER she made 2 mistakes. The first one is mentioning the something could be wrong, and then not have me come in. Doesn't she know that I am now searching the web to find out what could be the worse case scenario?! The second mistake is, I wouldn't have called if it had not have gotten worse. I've had pain there for over a week now. Today it is really bothering me, so I called. So now, I'm not sure how to gage the pain. It's more annoying then I'm-going-to-die-pain, so I guess if it gets to the point where I can't move or I feel like someone shot me, then that's when I should go to the ER.
Movement: Still a busy little guy.
Belly: Getting huge. Still no stretch marks, belly button still in for the most part.
Next Appointment: May 18th
Sleep: Depends on how I am feeling, but most nights I sleep pretty good.
Gender: Boy
Health: Okay. I had some contractions over the weekend, along with back pain, and stomach pain. But I feel much better today. I called my doctor's office today about the burning pain at the top of my stomach. I think it is muscle pain, but wanted to be sure. The nurse called back and said I could have gull stones and to go to the ER or call if it gets worse. I don't think she is right, HOWEVER she made 2 mistakes. The first one is mentioning the something could be wrong, and then not have me come in. Doesn't she know that I am now searching the web to find out what could be the worse case scenario?! The second mistake is, I wouldn't have called if it had not have gotten worse. I've had pain there for over a week now. Today it is really bothering me, so I called. So now, I'm not sure how to gage the pain. It's more annoying then I'm-going-to-die-pain, so I guess if it gets to the point where I can't move or I feel like someone shot me, then that's when I should go to the ER.
Movement: Still a busy little guy.
Belly: Getting huge. Still no stretch marks, belly button still in for the most part.
Next Appointment: May 18th
Friday, May 7, 2010
Uncomfortable
I have to say, this has been this first week that I have been uncomfortable most of the week. I'm tired, the muscles in my stomach hurt, I have back pain. I am blah. I'm hoping it's just an off week and I will go back to be my normal, happy, pregnant self next week. In fact, I am cutting this blog short, because I am too tired to think.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
32 weeks
How far along are you? 32 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? 1 pound from 2 weeks ago
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Still punching and kicking away. Sometimes enough to make me flinch, because it is in a weird spot, like in my kidney!
Best moment this week? Well, I haven't wrote in two weeks. So I would say since then, getting my maternity pictures taken. They turned out great, Thanks Dana!
Food Cravings? Still nothing.
Belly button in or out? In.
Milestones? Just getting this far. It's amazing, I'm going to have a baby!
Weekly Wisdom? Sleep is so very important.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Friday Follow
Okay, I think I signed up to do this. And I hope I do it right, it's the little things that confuse me!
Daycares
I started looking at Daycares this week, and my first visit wasn’t what I expected. But I’m also not sure what I expected. I’ve never been in a daycare before, so I guess I had this ideal dream-like place in my head. I thought it would be quiet (Not sure how I thought a daycare with tons of kids would be quiet) and beautiful, with better amenities than what I could ever have. I know, crazy right?
Well, here is what I got. I pulled in to find no parking, not sure why, since there were only 2 parents dropping off and 7 people working. . .but whatever. I go to open the door, but noticed there is a security code. Well, that’s a plus! D sees me and opens the door to let me know she will be right with me. Immediately, I am almost knocked over by parents and kids trying to get through their morning routine. It’s crowded, I have nowhere to go, and it’s loud! Oh, so very loud! I thought it was going to be set up more like a doctor’s office, a waiting room, with a receptionist. You sign in your little one and off they go with their keeper for the day. Once again, not sure why I thought it would be that way.
D comes back to get me and we go to the infant room, which is small. It reminds me of what an orphanage would look like. Cheap cribs all lined up, a small place for them to crawl, a rocking chair. You have to remove your shoes to go back, so you don’t track dirt back there. Again, a plus. But the whole time she is talking, I am thinking, can I really drop my baby off here?
After all is said and done, they are more than qualified to take care of my baby. Probably, more so then I am. It’s clean, it seems to be well organized, and the people seem to be great. It came highly recommended. But I can’t shake the feeling that that place is not where he is supposed to be. The cost for what I am getting, seems to be a little much. It’s half of my weekly paycheck. And even as I write this, that is a hard pill to swallow. I know we can’t afford to have me not working, but can we even afford for him to go here, to a place that I don’t even love? I can’t imagine a place that I would love being cheaper. . .
I guess, we will keep looking for now. I have another appointment for next week. And I’m really excited about this place, but I have a feeling we won’t be able to afford it. I just don’t know how people do it that have less than we do. I guess it’s just a balancing act, and it will work out in the end.
Well, here is what I got. I pulled in to find no parking, not sure why, since there were only 2 parents dropping off and 7 people working. . .but whatever. I go to open the door, but noticed there is a security code. Well, that’s a plus! D sees me and opens the door to let me know she will be right with me. Immediately, I am almost knocked over by parents and kids trying to get through their morning routine. It’s crowded, I have nowhere to go, and it’s loud! Oh, so very loud! I thought it was going to be set up more like a doctor’s office, a waiting room, with a receptionist. You sign in your little one and off they go with their keeper for the day. Once again, not sure why I thought it would be that way.
D comes back to get me and we go to the infant room, which is small. It reminds me of what an orphanage would look like. Cheap cribs all lined up, a small place for them to crawl, a rocking chair. You have to remove your shoes to go back, so you don’t track dirt back there. Again, a plus. But the whole time she is talking, I am thinking, can I really drop my baby off here?
After all is said and done, they are more than qualified to take care of my baby. Probably, more so then I am. It’s clean, it seems to be well organized, and the people seem to be great. It came highly recommended. But I can’t shake the feeling that that place is not where he is supposed to be. The cost for what I am getting, seems to be a little much. It’s half of my weekly paycheck. And even as I write this, that is a hard pill to swallow. I know we can’t afford to have me not working, but can we even afford for him to go here, to a place that I don’t even love? I can’t imagine a place that I would love being cheaper. . .
I guess, we will keep looking for now. I have another appointment for next week. And I’m really excited about this place, but I have a feeling we won’t be able to afford it. I just don’t know how people do it that have less than we do. I guess it’s just a balancing act, and it will work out in the end.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
National Infertility Week
This week is National Infertility Week. And I just wanted to bring it to light. There are so many women facing this problem, and yet, no one talks about it. It's such a private battle and a painful one. To have the one thing you want so badly, that other people seem to achieve without a second thought, not come easily or at all to you is crushing. This is a disease that comes in so many forms and affects so many. It plays with your emotions, counting the months, counting the days, test after test. Negative after negative.
I know many people who are battling this, I'm not sure if I didn't have to fight my own battles to get here if I would have known about their battles. I still can't say, I know how you feel or what you are going through. Because everyones experience is different, and I could never fully understand how this is affecting you. But what I can say is I admire you. How you keep going, how you find happiness in everyday, and how you haven't let it destroy you. How every morning you get up and face the day and go through the process that you have to go through. Temping, pills, doctors appointments, shots. I truely admire you, and am your biggest cheerleader. And every night I pray for you, to find the light at the end of your tunnel.
I know many people who are battling this, I'm not sure if I didn't have to fight my own battles to get here if I would have known about their battles. I still can't say, I know how you feel or what you are going through. Because everyones experience is different, and I could never fully understand how this is affecting you. But what I can say is I admire you. How you keep going, how you find happiness in everyday, and how you haven't let it destroy you. How every morning you get up and face the day and go through the process that you have to go through. Temping, pills, doctors appointments, shots. I truely admire you, and am your biggest cheerleader. And every night I pray for you, to find the light at the end of your tunnel.
Monday, April 26, 2010
What not to say.
When you wife is 7 months pregnant, and not feeling all that hot or skinny. The following conversation, probably shouldn't happen.
Scenerio: Watching a movie with Jennifer Aniston
Husband: How old is she now.
Wife: I don't know, over 40.
Husband: She is f*cking hot.
Scenerio: Watching a movie with Jennifer Aniston
Husband: How old is she now.
Wife: I don't know, over 40.
Husband: She is f*cking hot.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
30 Weeks
Pregnancy: 30 weeks
Weight Gain: up one pound from last doctors appt. 153 lbs
Sleep: I've actually been sleeping really well lately.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Pretty good. My back has been aching the last few days, but nothing too bad.
Health: Good.
Movement: Not as strong as before, I assume because he can't flip anymore. So just light jabs and kicks throughout the day.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks yet, and belly button still in.
Next Appointment: May 4th, I will be 32 weeks and 2 days.
Weight Gain: up one pound from last doctors appt. 153 lbs
Sleep: I've actually been sleeping really well lately.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Pretty good. My back has been aching the last few days, but nothing too bad.
Health: Good.
Movement: Not as strong as before, I assume because he can't flip anymore. So just light jabs and kicks throughout the day.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks yet, and belly button still in.
Next Appointment: May 4th, I will be 32 weeks and 2 days.
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