Waiting to Exhale

Well, after a nice and relaxing weekend, its back to the real world with a vengeance. The house situation seems tense. . .I just want to move. I really, really like this house. We just need money. . .because I know that someone is just going to sweep in and buy it. Then it’s back to square one, ugh. I checked on my money tree in the yard this morning. . .and it still isn’t growing. Must be this lousy Pittsburgh weather.
On the baby subject, not too much new. I’m on CD 19 and no O yet. I had a conversation with a friend of mine conversation last week about babies and stuff. At first it didn’t go so well, I don’t think she knows how we have been trying and how PCOS is really affecting me. She was one of those people who told me “It’s in God’s hands”. (sigh) So she on to tell me how she thinks she really wants a baby and how maybe we can be pregnant together. So I explained to her, that she most likely will be pregnant before me. Apparently, she didn’t think we were really trying. So I went into the whole thing of how I am temping and charting AND taking OPK’s everyday, and nothing. Most likely I will start medication on the next cycle. And I could see her just trying to process everything. I guess it’s hard for someone else to understand. She said she is amazed that I do all of that. That she doesn't think she would be able to. But I never pictured myself ever doing any of this either. But the minute I was told that I might possibly NOT be able to have a baby, I became very proactive. There was no wait and see for me.

So next week, I get to call and make my Dr.’s appointment and see what he has to say on what my next step should be. I’m very hopeful and I just want to get to the next thing. I am pulling out all the tricks on this last cycle. . .I bought POM juice (which is the nastiest thing next to Prune juice), I have mucinex (just in case i O and my CM isn’t what it should be). I don’t know what else I can do. . .but wait. I fill like that is what my life consist of now. Waiting. Waiting about the house. Waiting for money. Waiting for work to be done. Waiting for the weekend. Waiting for doctors appointments. Waiting for a baby. Waiting to Exhale.