Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
35 Weeks
Pregnancy: 35 weeks
Weight Gain: total of 26 pounds, I don't think that is bad!
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty good, with the usual breaks for the bathroom. I usually wake up because I have a stomach cramp, or it feels like he has jammed a foot in my rib. After repositioning, I usually feel better and can get back to sleep.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Okay. Exhausted. We went shopping the other day and I had to cut our trip short, I never cut a shopping trip short! And today, I thought I was going to fall over in the very first store!
Health: Mine, good. The baby's. . .he seems healthy. But we will find out soon enough.
Movement: The same kicks and punches, sometimes a little hard or in weird places.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks, belly button kind of out, kind of in.
Next Appointment: May 25th, internals start this week. And I will have my strep B test.
Weight Gain: total of 26 pounds, I don't think that is bad!
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty good, with the usual breaks for the bathroom. I usually wake up because I have a stomach cramp, or it feels like he has jammed a foot in my rib. After repositioning, I usually feel better and can get back to sleep.
Gender: Boy
Feeling: Okay. Exhausted. We went shopping the other day and I had to cut our trip short, I never cut a shopping trip short! And today, I thought I was going to fall over in the very first store!
Health: Mine, good. The baby's. . .he seems healthy. But we will find out soon enough.
Movement: The same kicks and punches, sometimes a little hard or in weird places.
Belly: Measuring 2 weeks ahead. No stretch marks, belly button kind of out, kind of in.
Next Appointment: May 25th, internals start this week. And I will have my strep B test.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Another test.
I've been told that God doesn't throw anything at you that you can't handle. . .I think God has seriously overestimated me.
34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. There might be something wrong with my baby. What do you do with that at 34 weeks?
I am a miscarriage survivor. I have gotten pregnant against the odds of PCOS. My husband and I have hit rock bottom (or close to) financially this year, and are still getting by. I was already in Labor and Delivery due to no fetal movement when I was 6 months pregnant. I failed the first round of glucose testing.
But this, this is a whole different level.
I have to wait two weeks and then I am seeing a Perinatologist for another growth ultrasound. The baby's head and stomach are larger then the rest of his body. Best case scenario, nothing is wrong. Worst Case, the baby has Down's. And then there is the whole slew of things in the middle that I can't even wrap my head around. I am completely focused on both of those. It is either nothing or the worst case, there is no middle ground for me right now.
My husband and I opted out of the testing at the beginning of the pregnancy for a couple of reasons. One, it's not 100%. After all I had been through, I didn't want a false positive to be a shadow over this pregnancy.
Two, what do you do if you have a positive result? Do you end the pregnancy, because it's not a prefect little baby? Is that selfish? Would I do something like that? I don't have the answers to any of those questions, and I would never judge anyone for making those decisions. Because that is a very personal and heart wrenching decision to have to make. I didn't want to make those decisions, so I didn't get tested.
But I have to admit, on several occasions I have questioned our decision not to. Always worried in the back of my mind that something could be wrong. And now that possibility is laid before us, and there is nothing I can do. No amount of praying or crying will change whatever the outcome is going to be. And no matter what that outcome is, he is coming into this world, either healthy or not.
So I am going to continue on getting his nursery ready, picking up last minute items that he may need, washing his clothes.
Are me and my husband prepared to raise and love a special needs child? Absolutely not. Are we capable of doing so (mentally and financially)? I really have no clue, but we may have to find out.
34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. There might be something wrong with my baby. What do you do with that at 34 weeks?
I am a miscarriage survivor. I have gotten pregnant against the odds of PCOS. My husband and I have hit rock bottom (or close to) financially this year, and are still getting by. I was already in Labor and Delivery due to no fetal movement when I was 6 months pregnant. I failed the first round of glucose testing.
But this, this is a whole different level.
I have to wait two weeks and then I am seeing a Perinatologist for another growth ultrasound. The baby's head and stomach are larger then the rest of his body. Best case scenario, nothing is wrong. Worst Case, the baby has Down's. And then there is the whole slew of things in the middle that I can't even wrap my head around. I am completely focused on both of those. It is either nothing or the worst case, there is no middle ground for me right now.
My husband and I opted out of the testing at the beginning of the pregnancy for a couple of reasons. One, it's not 100%. After all I had been through, I didn't want a false positive to be a shadow over this pregnancy.
Two, what do you do if you have a positive result? Do you end the pregnancy, because it's not a prefect little baby? Is that selfish? Would I do something like that? I don't have the answers to any of those questions, and I would never judge anyone for making those decisions. Because that is a very personal and heart wrenching decision to have to make. I didn't want to make those decisions, so I didn't get tested.
But I have to admit, on several occasions I have questioned our decision not to. Always worried in the back of my mind that something could be wrong. And now that possibility is laid before us, and there is nothing I can do. No amount of praying or crying will change whatever the outcome is going to be. And no matter what that outcome is, he is coming into this world, either healthy or not.
So I am going to continue on getting his nursery ready, picking up last minute items that he may need, washing his clothes.
Are me and my husband prepared to raise and love a special needs child? Absolutely not. Are we capable of doing so (mentally and financially)? I really have no clue, but we may have to find out.
Monday, May 10, 2010
33 Weeks
Pregnancy: 33 weeks
Sleep: Depends on how I am feeling, but most nights I sleep pretty good.
Gender: Boy
Health: Okay. I had some contractions over the weekend, along with back pain, and stomach pain. But I feel much better today. I called my doctor's office today about the burning pain at the top of my stomach. I think it is muscle pain, but wanted to be sure. The nurse called back and said I could have gull stones and to go to the ER or call if it gets worse. I don't think she is right, HOWEVER she made 2 mistakes. The first one is mentioning the something could be wrong, and then not have me come in. Doesn't she know that I am now searching the web to find out what could be the worse case scenario?! The second mistake is, I wouldn't have called if it had not have gotten worse. I've had pain there for over a week now. Today it is really bothering me, so I called. So now, I'm not sure how to gage the pain. It's more annoying then I'm-going-to-die-pain, so I guess if it gets to the point where I can't move or I feel like someone shot me, then that's when I should go to the ER.
Movement: Still a busy little guy.
Belly: Getting huge. Still no stretch marks, belly button still in for the most part.
Next Appointment: May 18th
Sleep: Depends on how I am feeling, but most nights I sleep pretty good.
Gender: Boy
Health: Okay. I had some contractions over the weekend, along with back pain, and stomach pain. But I feel much better today. I called my doctor's office today about the burning pain at the top of my stomach. I think it is muscle pain, but wanted to be sure. The nurse called back and said I could have gull stones and to go to the ER or call if it gets worse. I don't think she is right, HOWEVER she made 2 mistakes. The first one is mentioning the something could be wrong, and then not have me come in. Doesn't she know that I am now searching the web to find out what could be the worse case scenario?! The second mistake is, I wouldn't have called if it had not have gotten worse. I've had pain there for over a week now. Today it is really bothering me, so I called. So now, I'm not sure how to gage the pain. It's more annoying then I'm-going-to-die-pain, so I guess if it gets to the point where I can't move or I feel like someone shot me, then that's when I should go to the ER.
Movement: Still a busy little guy.
Belly: Getting huge. Still no stretch marks, belly button still in for the most part.
Next Appointment: May 18th
Friday, May 7, 2010
Uncomfortable
I have to say, this has been this first week that I have been uncomfortable most of the week. I'm tired, the muscles in my stomach hurt, I have back pain. I am blah. I'm hoping it's just an off week and I will go back to be my normal, happy, pregnant self next week. In fact, I am cutting this blog short, because I am too tired to think.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
32 weeks
How far along are you? 32 Weeks
Total Weight gain/loss? 1 pound from 2 weeks ago
Stretch marks? Nope:)
Baby Movement? Still punching and kicking away. Sometimes enough to make me flinch, because it is in a weird spot, like in my kidney!
Best moment this week? Well, I haven't wrote in two weeks. So I would say since then, getting my maternity pictures taken. They turned out great, Thanks Dana!
Food Cravings? Still nothing.
Belly button in or out? In.
Milestones? Just getting this far. It's amazing, I'm going to have a baby!
Weekly Wisdom? Sleep is so very important.
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